Illusions & Désillusions

- I.. I need you. P.. P.. Plea... ease. Hel.. Help me B, you.. your're m-m-my best friend!
- What's wrong S? What happenned? Why are you crying!?
- No.. n-no, I can't tell you!! I.. I can't tell anyone!
- But I'm not anyone S! I'm your best friend and I'm here for you! Tell me what's wrong!
- I can't B! I can't! I...
- Yes you can! Please sweetheart, you're scaring me!
- I.. I killed someone...

Spotted. S revealing her big secret. But it's not because you tell the truth that you won't have to face the consequences, Honey...

* 5 minutes later... *

- ... and then, we just met those boys you know, and, they offered us drinks after drinks after drinks.. We finally went to G's appartment and they started to, you know, snif coke. One of the boys tried to make out with me, but even if I was drunk, I tried to push him away! Finally, he sniffed another line, but he made an overdose and.. and.. he.. I.. G told me to go.. but I didn't wanted.. though I.. I didn't even had the time to think about it and we were gone! She was dragging me by the wrist, I was so shocked.. Oh my god B.. It's all my fault! I've never should have left! And, like.. The morning after all this, G called me, and then she told me that she had everything that happenned on tape, so she would tell anyone that I didn't helped that guy so it was like I killed him! But I didn't wanted to!! And then, she's manipulatin Dan, telling him her name's Sarah, and he really seems to appreciate her! I don't know what to do! I can,t tell him the whole story, if I can't even look at myself in a mirror, how could he look at me!? 

- Calm down S. Everything's alright. We'll fight together and we'll make G running out of town in a flash! She won't touch to Dan! I promise.

*** One week later ***

- I know I should have told you from the start, I should have told you the truth, instead of lying to you, and.. and, I regret that. Because I've lost what was the most important to me... You! And I miss you. I miss your smiles, I miss your hugs. I miss our sunday morning's breakfast in bed... I miss the old time. The old US. What we were before Georgina came back and ruined everything. But now, because of her, I'm the one who ruined everything... Dan.. I'm so sorry...

- Maybe you're sorry, and I am too I must admit, but you broke my heart Serena. You crushed it into a thousand of little pieces. I mean, maybe I could forgive you for your lies, but even if my heart still love you, I can't forgive you for breaking it. I forgave you many of your mistakes, but this one.. this one is much worse than all the others you've made. You know, I wish it wasn't as complicated as it is right now. I wish that.. just.. nothing had ever happenned, so we could continue where we were, loving and trusting each other. But for now Serena, you've lost my trust. Maybe you lied to me to protect me, but.. maybe I could have helped you. But now... Maybe for one time, it's too late to fix things up.. 

- Too.. too late? Dan.. you gotta be kidding. Please.. You told me, before.. Do you remember? You told me "If we love each other, we can fix everything"... Do you remember Dan!? Or is it so late that you forgot our past? We've been together for almost 10 months Dan.. Please.. Tell me you can't forget that so easily.. Because I can't..

- I didn't said that I wanted to forget our past, because if I would, I would want to meet you again... 

17 Août 2010
* Texte inspiré de la série télé Gossip Girl *